I found a place on Craigslist.

Every now and then, usually when the current job is getting to me I look up listings for "farm work" on craigslist. It never amounts to much, all with such little pay it makes me start thinking of all the things I would have to give up. I'm perfectly fine with getting rid of the cable - I don't watch it anyway. And I'd be happy to downsize the house, although I love it, the utilities cost too much. But the part I'd really be sad about is the food. We have a STOCKED pantry. If you need something, we have it. And no ingredient goes to waste. Plus, we have a CSA for almost everything. We pick up our chickens and our meat. We get our milk delivered, as well as our yogurt and eggs. And best of all, we get all our produce sent to us bi-monthly, from lots of local farms around the Seattle area. It's simply the most wonderful thing ever. The quality and taste of the food just doesn't compare to the stuff at supermarkets. Believe me, we've done taste tests.

The second thing to worry about is what will happen to all my savings, my retirement funds, my stocks?! With a huge cut in pay, I'd have to stop all the monthly deposits I give to about 10 accounts. Ugh. It breaks my heart, right now, to even think of it. I came a long way from debt to get to where I am now. And I'm stupidly dreaming up a way to bring myself back to the bottom. Am I nuts?

So last night, I saw a farm that needed help. They had no money to offer, but for a very fair exchange they'd give us a trailer to stay in (with cable to make Dominic happy). I can't stop thinking about this place. I didn't apply, because it looks like they've reached their capacity of resumes. But it still makes me wonder. What if? Could I give up the pricey meats? No more savings?

A lot of what ifs and damn it, if I don't have the answers yet. But I'll never get those answers unless I do it, right? RIGHT?!